Reverse Love Story

September 24

Dearest,

Sometimes I feel like I’m living a love story in reverse. I mourn your absence, longing for one day with you, holding onto the snippets and feelings. With faith and hope in every heartbeat, I pray that our time together will begin soon and last until my last breath (before continuing onto the next phase). Because I don’t know what space and time without you could possibly be like after finally finding you. In romances, the “before” involves a certain naivety to the all-consuming love on the horizon, a sense of self separate from this great love. That simply doesn’t follow our saga. My mind and heart are not capable of erasing you from my being, not even under the pressure of age or illness. So if the typical ending or loss of love is but the prelude to ours, what can I expect to follow? Instead of a string of life, I can see how it wraps together forming an infinite circle. A merging so complete between two souls that there is no beginning, no meet cute, no hesitant tiptoe into love just as there is no ending, no true separation, no extinguishing the eternal flame that burns so brightly. And if time is removed from the equation, it both simplifies and complicates our love. Any separation is jarring, incongruent with our nature and our life together is the summation of every force for good- a lifetime in every shared moment. If we remove distance from the equation, no matter our physical location, our souls will reach out to reassure, connect, and love. A love without limitations.

Forever Yours,

Kristi

To be opened on our wedding day